Ahhhhhh…..fuckery! 2:30am, can’t sleep, all sorts of restless and a million and one things running through my head. What is it with that early morning brain hive thing? Anyone else get that too? Where you’re mind just runs mental lists of the six thousand things there are to do, or it skips from topic to topic….or sometimes it just gets stuck on one moment, one scenario, one memory – and you just can’t stop thinking about it. Sometimes i don’t realise how deep into the thought i am until i feel tears rolling down my face, or i catch myself exhaling a massive breath.
Hmmmm…..when we’re young, all we want to do is grow up. And now, somedays i would give anything to be 10 again. No worries, no responsibilities – no bills, no deadlines, no politics and no awareness of how fucked up the world is right now. Sure there’s a downside – no bourbon for one…lol, no sex, no moments of passion and pleasure. Yeah – fairly substantial downsides i guess.
Spose i should get some sleep. The office awaits bright and early – and the treadmill will be calling me (fucking torture device) in 4 hours. Maybe rub one out quickly to help me drift off : )
Night everyone, and no one. May your dreams be laced with shades of an alternate reality.